this is war

tomorrow.is.the.day.

yes tomorrow is the actual last time that i wear the jhs uniform. 

will be wearing it to take the report book. who cares about the rank. what i care about is my future school life. i want to graduate from school very soon BUT i don't want to grow up. 

OH YESSSSSS! TODAY IS JUNG YONG HWA'S BIRTHDAY HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!! 

three trending topics. hehehehehe good thing #YONGHWAinmyhead is the first!!!!!

can't choose even 1 out of 4 members from CN BLUE. because they are all awesome (for me). hehehehehehehe. can't wait for their Japanese album this August!!!!!! 

recently on playlist:

- stupid. juniel ft. yong hwa
- still in love. cn blue
- love letter. ft triple
- this is war. MBLAQ

- hey you. cn blue
- believe. G.O(mblaq)

- illa illa. juniel

- run away. wei chen(chinese singer) ft. lee joon (mblaq) and thunder (mblaq)

- even in my dream. G.O (mblaq)

watched 'this is war' MV and almost cried. a very sad song + MV. here.

"You mess with love, you mess with friendship"

xx.

tears in heaven

*half eaten*

Seriously, holiday is killing me. I feel like i'm a totally useless person. Doing the same thing everyday, being out of touch with friends, eating like a pig, going to sleep at 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning and waking up at 12 or 1 o'clock in the afternoon, and so on. I'm tired with this routine. I wish i could just sleep 24 hours straight for like a week? a month? Yes, until i get something and meaningful things to do. The holiday is boring me to death  yet i don't want the new class to start. You know, i'm not ready, being a junior in the Senior High School. they say high school is always meaningful, joyful, tearful. They say it's the time where we are forced to face the problems, full of drama (they say), some of them tell me that senior high school is the most tiring, it's when we change, and so do our friends. We'll get new friends. this. This is what i'm worrying about. for the people who are not close to me, fyi, i'm always afraid to talk to a new people, a stranger. I'm a type of person who won't start a conversation first. It's not that i don't want to socialize. I really want to. but when it comes to introducing, starting to talk, and so on, i start getting nervous. What if i say something weird, something wrong and something unacceptable?

I'm wondering how my senior high school life will be. Tell me what to do. What if my friends and i are all separated? What if i can't make friends? What if i don't have anyone to do things together? WHAT THE FFFFF....ROOOOGG am i thinking! I know a thing about myself, i don't need a best friends, i just need a sincere friend, in the real life. 


For the ones who read this, might think that i'm selfish, boring or whatever. I'm now saying that there's a t*****r who likes to say that i'm arrogant. I kept thinking if what she said were true. I didn't know if she was trying to bring me down or judging me. Until one day i decided not to let it keep bothering me. Why didn't i just ignore her from the beginning. I wish she reads this and realizes that i'm talking about her,here. fyi, i'm thankful for you existence.

xx.

teardrops in the rain

6th day of holiday. I thought it would be a nice and busy holiday but it turns out to be a boring holiday ;( planned a long list of activities before holiday but don't feel like accomplishing it. I need productive days yet I'm so lazy. As usual, watching DVDs all day long at home, listening to some nice songs. I need to go out oftenly, am craving for sushi and cakes but still, haven't got the right time to fulfill my desires. My laziness cancels plans. I probably should start typing the final copy to make myself busy but somehow I just can't zzzzz.

Currently watching WGM-Yongseo couple. Ahahaha should have watched it years ago :( but how can Yong Hwa be so kyeoptaaaaa?! lol

Since I admire his smile and dimples...
So...

-ever crossed in my mind that i would never blog anymore but this time i blog due to the boredom happens to me.
xx.